I thought about this last night as I lay awake in the wee hours of the morning.
I do not read baby books.
I pay very little attention to what I eat.
I have interviewed no pediatricians.
Listening to his heartbeat at the doctor's office does nothing for me.
His nursery is not all set up--he doesn't even have a nursery.
Feeling him move is not magical, it just hurts.
We put together his crib last night and I realized I should have built the cat tree first because the cat tree parts take up more room.
That's right, I put the cats before the baby.
I am a terrible pregnant woman.
I wish to be clear.
I am very attached to the wee Danny T.
I am very glad that he is healthy and (as much as a fetus can be) happy.
I would be devastated if that were not the case.
But...
I would like a way of interacting with him that doesn't involve one of us whaling on the other
Or constant heartburn.
I want to be able to move about comfortably.
I would like not to down seven pills, supplements, and capsules a day
Because he is sucking me dry.
I am sick of waiting 30-45 minutes for an appt that takes 10 mins.
Every other week.
(Now every week! Yay!)
Did I mention it takes 20 mins just to drive there?
I am happy to have this baby, but I am SICK of being pregnant.
2 comments:
I think we ended up just going with the hospital's on-call pediatrician with Jonathan. I've become pickier now, but with the first it's harder to know what you want to look for.
None of my children have had a "nursery."
End of pregnancy movement can definitely stink.
We didn't have Jonathan's crib set up until he was born (granted, that was earlier than expected... but still). Emma didn't even have a crib until she was about 6 months old. Did you know a playpen with bassinet insert makes a wonderful, small, and easy to put by the bed place for a baby? As long as an older sibling doesn't decide to get said baby out of bed, of course...
I must say your wait/drive time comment made me smile though. As I said, I'm picky with doctors now. And so I drive about an hour each way. I just got tired of looking for a good fit closer. :) But seriously it took me a long time for that kind of drive to be acceptable. I think Jonathan's doctor was about 5 minutes away. Drive and wait time is definitely annoying when you have a lot of appointments!
So really, I think you sound like a pretty normal pregnant woman. :) Hang in there. It's hard now, but a few weeks isn't too long in the overall scheme of things. You can make it. :)
Oh, Cassia. It's like you've been there!
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